100!!! Do Y’all Even Care Though?

Since I started this journey a couple of years ago, I have shared 100 blog posts as of today! That’s an accomplishment in a way, though I’m not even sure y’all care. Do you?

If you do enjoy the posts, which ones are your favorites? What do you want to read more about?

The whole point of starting in my blog was to share about my journey, thoughts, and let those who read my books get to know who I am as a person. I completely understand that not everything I do, say, experience, think, etc. will resonate with everyone. However, I do hope that by sharing so openly and honestly it might help someone at some point.

I haven’t led a traditional (or even commonly acceptable) life thus far, and why start now? I am an open book, though. I don’t mind sharing. It took me a long time to accept who I am and actually see myself. In fact, I’m still learning. Every day I discover something else about myself.

Sometimes it’s because of something someone says that causes me to reflect. Other times, I just ask myself questions and let my mind wander. I’m surprised by the way things click sometimes. (Especially if it’s something someone close to me has been trying to point out for years.)

Because of that, I’m not interested in being ashamed of who I am or anything I’ve done. I’m not necessarily proud of all of my choices, but I have learned and grown from each one. That, I am incredibly proud of.

One of the reasons I’m so open is so that I can lead by example. It doesn’t matter what you’ve done or what you’ve allowed before, you don’t have to stay on that path. You get to CHOOSE every moment of every day what you want to do and how you want to do it. We are allowed to change our minds!

I was going through a few friendships and interactions where I felt betrayed by people sharing my “secrets” with others, talking about me, and even making things up. That hurt. A friend of mine gave me some simple advice…

“Stop sharing things that you don’t want anyone else to know. If you don’t tell anyone, no one will ever have the opportunity to share it or use it against you.”

I’m a talker (I know, you would’ve never guessed), so that concept seemed foreign and unfathomable. However, there was another alternative that he shared…

“Or, be completely ok with who you are. Once you accept yourself, it won’t matter what anyone else says about you.”

I think I’m somewhere in between those options at this point. I don’t feel the need to talk about everything and every part of me with everyone. Sometimes I don’t feel the need to share things with anyone. However, I am not ashamed of myself any longer.

Don’t get me wrong. I sometimes still struggle with certain things I’ve done or decisions I’ve made. However, I try to figure out why I have certain habits and check in to see if they still serve me and who I desire to be.

I believe that I will be a work in progress as long as I get to enjoy this life. I strive to be better every day, but I also realize that I do have old habits and patterns of behavior that I do default to at times. I have been working on complete acceptance of myself, and also having compassion and forgiveness for myself when I do fall back into old patterns.

If I would be quick to forgive someone I love for something, or show compassion to them, shouldn’t I do that for myself as well? Loving myself completely means learning to love the parts I have found to be less desirable.

Anyway, for this 100th post I thought about doing something extra, like 100 fun/random/etc. facts about me…but I realized that would be a LOT! So, instead, you got this random, rambling piece.

At any rate, I’d love to hear your feedback on if you’re enjoying my blog/ramblings and if so what you’d like to know or read more about.